Depression sucks?

i am in need of a boyfriend. id ont know why, but im getting desprate. the only thing i can think about is i need someone to talk to, someone to cry to, someone to touch, someone to cuddle with, someone to share my life with. someone like a boyfriend. (i dont want , im 14 loz, that would be weird) but thats the other thing. i cant find anyone!!!!! ino a lot of gay ppl, but there is somehting about all of them that makes them not right!!! so i have no idea what to do, i dont want to meet ppl over the net because thats creepy and child-melester-ish and i have no idea what to do! its getting bad to the point where im depressed, and cant consentrate on anything. i need love. help?